I have stopped having friends. I will live a life in solitude with my family and my education. After reviewing my generation, and talking to the Lord, I have come to the conclusion that I was put here, or I should say NOt put here to have a good time. I’m not saying that I’m only doing this to go to Heaven or anything; no one should believe in God for that reason. I’m doing this because I think it’s who I am. All of the downfalls, all of the mistakes I’ve learned from have led me to this point in my life. Yes, I want to stay in a dormitory if I shall transfer to a four-year. Yes, I would love to meet new people, but I cannot depend on my fun to get things done. Iwon’t tell you what my purpose is, because I’m not so sure myself, but it will involve being someone important. I need to find myself though, the REAL me, the John that God wants.
I wonder when I will be that person, but in the meanwhile I cannot continue to act the way I’ve been acting. That’s all I can say for now, but I’ll be extending this note soon.