Archive for April, 2015


Posted: April 8, 2015 in Uncategorized


So i have had this blog for pretty much 7 years now. Isn’t that awesome? Well, I will be moving away next week, even though I really haven’t been writing here since I used to, which was probably not since 2011 or so. I have to write in here sometimes though. Not gonna tell you where I am going, but I found a job over there so I am not very worried… at least in terms of surviving in a non-emotional sort of way.

Anyway, I am going to be doing some sort of investigative, independent studies course I have designed for myself. Education doesn’t always involve a classroom, auditorium lecture, or series of standardized exams. And so, I am going to be doing a lot of talking, and hopefully hitting up the university of where I am going and hopefully talking to people. It is sort of weird, but I know it will be a good experience. See, this is so personal but whatever. My whole life I basically have been scared and ashamed for no real reason. I was never abused or truly bullied or anything. Through certain experience I concluded that no one really like me. Of course, I see that differently now, but to a certain extent this worldview persists.

Anyway, basically I have developed some sort of course I am calling Human Systems. Although it does leave a lot out, I am trying as best as I can to cover broad topics for starters, and also, read stuff I am actually interested in as well. Stuff like Economy and religion I sort of don’t want to delve into right now, at least not in a highly detailed fashion. So, in a sense it’s sort of like a big as Sociology re-majoring on my terms.

I have divided a huge amount of books to read into subsections or Learning Blocks, and the last book is a pre-selected text hat is somewhat related to the topics/ overall underlying themes of the previous books. It’s like- for every learning block you learn theories or ideas, and then on the final book for that section, you try to relate or apply the fundamental building blocks to this topic in a very harrowing, scholarly, and creative way. Mind if I share my texts with you? Also, you can always reach out to me if you want to be a part of this class. I figure I need to keep reading or else I will fall off track. It is a lot of reading, maybe 25 books? Not Goosebumps books or Penguin Classics kid books. I am talking about pretty dense and dry academic material here. So it may take a year or two. But thankfully, divi’ng the material into blocks allows for concise, block-by-block learning at a self-regulated pace. One where perhaps understanding the material will be more important than completing it I am sure. Hopefully it turns out well.

So the place I am working at is a Drive Thru SBX, the second busiest in the State I am going to, which is pretty awesome. The thing about being busy is that sure it’s busy but 8 hours is still 8 hours. I just don’t want this job to interfere with my education. Anyway, back in college I didn’t really have a job, and now that I have been working here for almost 3 years, I haven’t really been in school. But learning doesn’t stop when you get older; at least in shouldn’t. You don’t just go to school for 20 years and then one day graduate and never touch a book, or new idea again. Of course not! Learning is a part of life, it’s a part of being human. Sharks don’t really get a chance to learn, so in a way, we are really lucky. I want to understand humans more, kind of like if they were machines sort of.

Here is my self-guided course:

Learning Block 1: Human Systems Overview- Theoretical/ Historical Foundations

Book 1: The Human Use of Human Beings by Norbert Wiener

Book 2: The Power Elite by C. Wright Mills

Book 3: General Economic History by Max Weber

Book 4: The Social System by Talcott Parsons

Applied Texts: Feudal Society Vol I, Vol II by Marc Bloch; Technology and Society by Deborah Johnson

Learning Block 2: Human Emotional Systems: Affect Theory/ The Affect System

Book 1: Shame and Its Sisters: A Silvan Tomkins Reader by Eve Sedgewick

Book 2: Shame and Pride by Donald Nathanson

Book 3: The Affect Theory Reader

Book 4: Emotions Revealed by Paul Ekman

Applied Text: Building Confidence (self-help) by Barrie Davenport

Learning Block 3: Sex, Gender and Socio-Political/ Reproductive Processes

Book 1: The Naked Woman by Desmond Morris

Book 2: The Naked Male by Desmond Morris

Book 3: How We Do It: The Evolution and Future of Human Reproduction

Book 4: The Feminine Mystique by Betty Friedan

Applied Text: Flirting with Danger: Young Women’s Reflections on Sexuality and Dominations

Learning Block 4: Human Origins, and The Future of Humanity

Book 1: Masters of the Planet by Ian Tattersall

Book 2: Origin of Species by Charles Darwin

Book 3: The Selfish Gene by Richard Dawkins

Book 4: The Naked Ape by Desmond Morris

I may end up adding another learning block, but for now this is good for me. Learning Block 4 I may not be interested in, given the anthropological, zoological, and historical artifacts that sort of take up the whole block, combined with the starkly contrasted Applied Text. I may just have no Applied Reading for that Block, and just have it be some sort of Natural Science/ Historical Narrative of Man. It just seems like something different than a Social Science to me, but I don’t want to completely ignore it since its implications for modern day humankind are tremendous, not to mention it will give a huge amount of insight to not only the subsequent readings. I just don’t know whether I should save that for last or have it become the second learning block, and move everything else after that down a notch, sequentially speaking. Yeah, I will just switch the learning blocks a little but, and have two applied text for the first learning block.

Let me know what you think.